'Just give me a minute', I said. 'I'm not feeling so well.' At that moment, I decided that I was going to finish my business at my own leisurely pace, everyone else be damned. I had been in jail, a couple of convenience stores, a cab, and walking in the rain in the last few hours. Apparently I had been kicked out of my girlfriend's flat. I was tired. And I wasn't giving in. I finished the first beer, pulled out another, and coughed loudly to try to cover the sound of the can opening. I already felt better about myself and took a deep drink. 'Ahh'.
More rapping. "Seriously, buddy, can you please hurry it up a bit? My son..'
I interrupted him. "Your son? Listen, I'm in here, I gotta poop just as bad, I'm not going to rush it, and the way I see it, since I was here first, you gotta wait for me. You're on my schedule.' I was breathing heavy; angry, but still cautious. I listened and heard some cursing, then clearly, 'Thanks a lot, asshole!' I then heard the door open, then close, as the guy took off, looking for a more agreeable bathroom stall patron, I presume. I took a deep breath and sat quietly, evaluating things. I decided that by the time I finished the second beer, I would be done, I could clean up, and get out of there. (It just took a little longer than I thought). And that's exactly what I did, leaving 2 empty cans of malt liquor on the floor next to the scrubber. And I left through the back door.
Stories and reflections on my own experiences with alcohol as I journey into recovery, starting with the end run. This is a story, so the oldest posts are at the beginning. I add to the back end. Best read from the beginning. Pay no attention to the date stamps, if you are looking for new additions, scroll to the end. There are 10 entries per page. Current count is 62 entries. A work in progress, of course, as am I.
Tuesday, January 20, 2015
I'm going to take my time because I deserve something.
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addiction,
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alcoholism,
autobiography,
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