So, people, I am sure what you all have been wondering what this guy has been up to over the past year or so. The truth is...not much. Life has gotten better, then worse then better, then worse. So, if you average it out, nothing has really changed. I have abandoned all recovery programs, and as a result, my ability to remain sober has increased dramatically. I finally came to the conclusion that AA is a crock of shit, and the reason I spent the better part of three years in detox and rehab is because I continued to drink the Kool-aid. I hope I have offended the appropriate amount of people with that statement, and I have no remorse as a result. So, if you want to continue to revolve in and out of sobriety, try AA regularly. It works. For that, anyway.
I realize that the best way to try to stay sober is to not try very hard. Crowd all negative things out with good things, eat healthy and exercise. Study Buddhism. Climb all 4000 ft peaks in the White Mountains. Pet every damn animal you see. If you have an aquarium, get rid of the blue fish. Don't be afraid of drinking, and if you do, get back on track as soon as possible. I have realized that I want to spend my life doing other things than trying to remain sober. Because, that is no way to live. Don't be fooled. It is a waste of what can be a wonderful life.
I am not cynical. I am a realist. Life needs more meaning than trying to simply stay away from the booze. Listen to the Avett Brothers. Jump into the ocean on New Years Day. Learn how to fix your brakes. Before you know it, you will be too old to do any of these things, and what do you have to look back on? A life of sobriety. Wow. Ask yourself - was it worth it?
